Running out of positve.....

energy. Seriously I am having a really tough time. This feeling in my body is so strange and foreign to me that it is starting to wear me down. And even stranger, as I feel myself losing some steam.. I know deep down I will not give in and smoke... I do not want to smoke.... My body may be missing it, and is having trouble working without it, but not matter how crappy I feel... I am not even in a battle with myself about it.. I will not smoke today.. PERIOD... So this is not an SOS, I just needed to take a break from supper and let out some steam.I feel so tired I can barely move, my nerves are on edge (with 2 kids under 4 not a great quality), everything tastes like crap! Everything,Herbal cigarettes, even treats I allowed myself today. My head feels like it is not connected.. My one leg has a feeling of a charlie horse in it.. I am using the patch, so I can only imagine what I might feel like without it... I almost wonder if I have a disfunctional one.. I am having waves of craves that last about 5 mins and they are all physical. I even have shaky fingers at times... I am almost wondering if I might be getting the flu.... and the quit is not even related... Who knows??? All I know is I am very tired and even the thought of smoking is exhausting... That cycle---- smoking wanting to quit, quitting wanting to smoke... etc.. over and over... I am SICK and tired of it.. So I am KEEPING MY QUIT no matter what......Thanks for letting me vent... I am going to ask hubby to watch the kids for a minute.. I have a relaxation CD upstairs somewhere, I bought a few months ago to assist with a quit I never started... I am so tense right now I feel like I could explode... Sorry to be selfish here!! Just needed to share with someone! Oh did I mention my DH response when he took one look at me after work " You look awful... You look sick... Maybe this really was not the best time to quit!" My response was in sign language... for I could not find the words,quit smoking now, but I could find the finger!!!