I Screwed up

I'm not gonna beat around the bush guys, I screwed up and smoked.I don't know if there's a standard 'divorce talk,' but if there is, I just had it. I know it's not an acceptable excuse, but we just spent a few hours outside acting like we hate each other,stop smoking, and I started smokin' with her.I lost a quit and a wife, all at the same time. Time will tell what else. The kids are already asking stupid questions, and I am ill prepared to answer them at this moment.Crappy day. Crappy day. I got tears running down my face here, and I feel like a jerk for so many reasons right now.The divorce I saw coming, but not the quit. I'm so so so so so so so so so so angry and sad for losing the quit. Weeping like a little bitch. Even making all the bitch noises that go with it.I'll be back in a few days, I promise.I swear it, I will be back soon. I swear,Herbal cigarettes, I swear, I swear, I friggin swear, I'm gonna fix this and come back.