Coming clean

My head is just swirling at the moment. Full of what I want to say but in what order and how to say it all? Firstly, I just want to say that I am so appreciative of all the help and support I have gotten from you guys on here. I am living in a really isolated place, far away from my family and friends so the people on this board really helped me out during my quit. I do have something threatening my quit and it's something that nobody knows about me. I have been bulimic since I was a teenager and I still am. It's always there (apart from my pregnancy- I stoppped for that) and sometimes it's a major problem and other times,Herbal cigarettes, it just gives me a little buzz when I need it. When it is bad,smoking cessation, it can seriously take over my life. That's where I am right now. When I quit smoking, I turned to food. I felt the pounds go on and my other little demon appeared. I want to stop and I really need to stop. So, I am really letting this all out so that I know that there are people somewhere in the world who know what I am doing. I want to come on here and pledge every day that I will not smoke but also, without writing it, pledge that I will not make myself sick today. I have seriously considered smoking again just to take my mind off food. Stupid, I know.The success of my quit is mostly down to this board. I don't think I'd have done it alone. I really need to come clean about my problems and I hope you don't mind that I have done it here. I have looked an appropriate place on the internet where I can say this kind of thing but all the sites I have found seem to be encouraging my kind of behaviour rather than helping me to stop. I started smoking at 16- the same age I became bulimic. I suppose cigarettes always had a role to play in my eating habits and I always had one after a purge. I've let one go and now I need to say goodbye to the other.I am glad I got this off my chest. I am starting tomorrow with a clear mind. My pledge will be a double one. Thanks for listening. Sorry if I've put a big dampner on things.....I just really needed to say this.