Wednesday, July 28, 2010

Life goes on without the smoke

I quit on Tuesday morning and I'm doing o.k. That is 72 hours right? Yesterday was bad but today I feel much much better. One thing I realized today is that non-smokers are o.k. They still have fun. They still can have coffee. They still can go outside. Meaning I'm really not giving anything up by quitting. I'm gaining lung function. I'm gaining health. I'm gaining time with the people I love. Oh saving some money too. I remember always thinking how do people go through their day to day life as non-smokers. I always thought that was strange. And I wondered how they did it. LOL really. I thought they were so different. What did they do with their hands all day? After 20 years of smoking I just couldn't think what it would feel like (well except for the few times I quit and that was for babies and I ate a lot.) The funny thing is I remember hating smokers when I was a kid. My whole family smoked and I hated it so much. It wasn't until I moved in with my Dad who became a non-smoker that I changed. I met a knew friends and she smoked. So I tried it. I didn't even know how to inhale. But I practiced. And I hid it all the way back then. I never once thought smoking was cool ever. But I remember once I inhaled I became addicted. It was so easy to become addicted. Now that friend who gave me my first cigarette doesn't smoke. She feels bad all the time that I still do (well she doesn't know yet I quit). Anyway,stop smoking now, I remember thinking how she gave up something. Didn't she miss the enjoyment? What did she do with all her free time and hands? How could she have coffee without a cigarette? Now I know how. She just did it like I am. I am still drinking my morning coffee but instead of being excited when it's done so I can go out and have my cigarette,stop smoking, I'm excited just to have the coffee. Instead of going out on my deck to smoke I go out on my deck to look at the flowers. I bring my coffee out there and spend about 10 minutes (same time I'd be out there to smoke). I can do this. I really can and so can you. I'm so glad I found this board. You guys are really helpful. Just reading what you write inspires me each day. I truly don't want to be a smoker anymore. Michelle

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